the question...!!

recently mom popped up a question to me at dinner. she asked - "you have met so many girls and isnt there anyone you like? or isnt there anyone who likes you?" i've just turned twenty-six now and i was pretty much sure why she asked me this question. i wasnt surprised, but yeah i couldnt stop smiling. i simply nodded my head saying that there wasnt one such yet. and then she continued saying "you have another two years for yourself. find a girl by then, else let me do the searching for you...!" "gosh! mom wants me to get married... and that too in another two years... isnt that too early?", i thought. well that did rise the question in my mind - "whoz that goin to be?? and woh ladki hay kahaan??" lol...

The song's really nice...

"True" by Ryan Cabrera

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weakIts true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

Someday someway... together we will be baby!

The song that running through my mind these few days...

Someday, somway - MLTR

In my search for freedom
and peace of mind
I've left the memories behind
Wanna start a new life
but it seems to be rather absurd
when I know the truth
is that I always think of you

Chorus:Someday someway
together we will be baby
I will take and you will take your time
We'll wait for our fate
cos' nobody owns us baby
We can shake we can shake the rock

Try to throw the picture out of my mind
try to leave the memories behind
Here by the oceanwave's carry voices from you
Do you know the truth
I am thinking of you too

Chorus:
Someday someway
together we will be baby...
The love we had together
just fades away in time
And now you've got your own world
and I guess I've got mine

But the passion that you planted
in the middle of my heart
is a passion that will never stop

A disturbing silence...

There's a disturbing silence within me.. and i cannot ignore it.. so i sit almost anytime, glaring at something in the distance... dunno what i see, but i keep watching as thoughts flash across my mind and i keep watching.. then suddenly some one disturbs my silence, asks me why am i so silent, and i smile back, cause i wouldn't know what to answer... nod my head as if to say nothing at all... but then i know.... i am thinking... something deep... and i get back into my silence... a disturbing silence...


Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Sataao
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Rulaao

Dil Badal Bane Aankhein Behne Lagi
Aahein Aise Uthein Jaise Aandhi Chalein
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Sataao
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Rulaao
Aa Bhi Jaao

Gum Le Ja Tere, Jo Bhi Tune Diye
Ya Phir Mujhko Bata, Inko Kaise Sahein
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Sataao
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Rulaao
Aa Bhi Jaao

Abb To Iss Manjar Se, Mujhko Chale Jana Hai
Jin Raahon Pe Mera Yaar Hai
Unn Raahon Ko Mujhse Paana Hai
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Sataao
Toh Phir Aao Mujhko Rulaao
Aa Bhi Jaao

Can i ever....???

Can I ever sit with you?

All alone with no one around?

Can you ever only look into my eyes,

And continue to look into me, lifelong?

Can we ever hug each other, so tight,

That I can feel your heart beat with mine?

Can I ever pull your cheeks, so hard,

That you'll never keep me waiting anytime?

Can I carry you in my arms, when,

You don't feel like walking?

Can I ever be kissed by you,

And be loved unconditionally?

nandi....

wake up at 1.30am after an hour's sleep at my room.. my friend is banging the door to wake me up... i get up and open the door and see him frantically asking me to get ready so that we could leave to Nandi with the CPDM gang. well.. it was already planned so i was ready for this. took me five minutes to scoot from there to the dept. and then we waited for others to join... at around 2am we departed from the dept to our destination - NANDI HILLS. :)

The ride was long, as we had four new guys who didnt know the route.. and i was at the tail of the gang making sure everyone else was alright. once we reached there, we had other gangs of people waiting for the gates to open.. some dancing to blasting music from their 4 wheelers, and some couples cozily sitting talking to each other in this wonderful place.... my gang was all tired so they took the opportunity and dozed off wherever they found place... i was awake, cause i didnt wanna miss this bliss... took snaps all around, tried my photographic skills at that hour. slowly as the gates opened finally, people rushed to find a spot to watch this morn.... and the experience of being on the top of the hill, was something you need to experience by being there.. :)

An evening at the Sankey...

The wind blew hard... the sky went all dull... the clouds closed in, darkening the evening sky... I was with Shiraz, my closest buddy since school, enjoying the serene beauty around the lake (Sankey Tank). I've come here before, but long ago when i was a small kid... we could fish then, and there was no path way like there is now... Now i see people, young n old, all around, some walking briskly, some strolling casually... its nice to see people actually enjoy the little nature thats left in Bangalore... though they dont do anything to keep it enjoyable for the future... its hard to imagine that people ignore the little responsibility of keeping the city clean and just indulge so much more in making it hard to keep it beautiful... i wonder why? hmmm.. well, these thoughts always pass my mind, everyday... anyways. Shiraz n me decided to sit around a corner and watch the lake as the lights from other side of the lake shimmered the surface so elegantly... and the evening sky, looked so perfect for a picture. and then i wondered... how many years more would we be able to enjoy this splendour?

Rangashankara....

mmmm.... another place i love to spend time at... "Rangashankara"... i so gladly accepted to go with my friend when he said he had some work at Jayanagar just because i wanted to go to this theatre... especially the cafe! i've always hated coffee day's and barista's which are so crowded, this place, is far different with its ethnic look (which actually my theatre friends contributed to..) and open cafe... i had been here long ago when it rained one evening and need i say anymore... i enjoyed sipping my "teefee" (its a combo of tea and coffee - tastes different and yumm!) while watching the rain lash outside...

a rainy night...

it heats up n it rains.. a city that cools itself down when the heat rises beyond acceptable.. i've not seen other cities which behave so much similarly.. just when we all complained about how hot (off-course by weather :P) bangalore was getting, it pours down so heavily that you cannot stop but enjoy the entire experience... the aroma of the freshly wet mud, the cool breeze.. mmm... jus wonderful.. :)

a silent morning...

fresh from a night long rain, dressed in a carpet of complete lushful green, highlighted with crimson red and yellow, IISc's morning wore a peaceful look... staying back at the labs overnight gives you sometimes the opportunity to enjoy the picturisque beauty of this institute.. and i was all around the place cycling and photographing this heavenly look that IISc wore... jus to add up to the already happy state of mind, i went and sat at my favourite place at IISc that morning.. the steps under the statue of Jamshedji. i dunno why i am so attached to nature... and i dunno why i love sitting here... i find myself at so much peace whenever i sit here... sometimes, the best things are enjoyed when you're alone... and i did, and i loved it all... :) (psst.. photos coming soon!)

Another day passes by...

And so does another day pass by... lol.. saw her at the mess today, thought, i'd finally make the move, go grab the opportunity, and say what i have to... and i took the first step when my classmate just appeared and said "hey! join me at the table!" and i smiled, partly wishing i could kill him then, and partly saying to myself, guess its still not the day... ;) well, good things take time to arrive dont they!? :D and so shall i wait, for the right time, and strike the iron, when its red hot! :P ciao!

Puzzled soul!

well.. still confused about how i'm gonna get to her.... lol.. and here's what i wrote in the same state of mind... :D

Sometimes I wonder, while I walk the distance,
Why shouldn’t I ask? Why the hesitance?
Would she be my friend, and let me be one?
But I know not why, for I’ve got no reasons.

For I know not why, I’m still made to wonder.
Must I make my move? Or should I wait longer!
How am I gonna ask her? What will I say?
"Will you be my friend?” or just shut up and stay??

continued....

back again.. have an exam in an hour now and i'm jus chillin it out... wow! lol... anyways, this girl, has this wonderful glint in her eye, that i almost always never miss it. she's got this interesting persona that.. (boy! its amazing...) well.. got my fingers crossed! ;) shall come back to describe more.. gotta get back to my books... suddenly get this feeling of not knowing anything! he he he he he... ciao!

a girl i'm so eager to talk to....

yeah... i know, this is a topic most wouldnt miss! lol... there's this really interesting girl that i've been so eagerly wanting to talk to from my first semester. right from the day i first noticed her, i've harboured thoughts of how i'm gonna approach her and befriend her... but alas! i've still havent made the move yet! :) infact there was this one time that i happened to talk to her on the pretext of a questionaire for one of our projects, but she rushed away saying she was hungry and wanted to grab some food for her hungry tummy! :P ever since, i've been devising plans to be able to spark a conversation with her, (just like my buddy in the Road-runner show on cartoon network does everyday to catch the birdie.. fate is, i still aint successful!) interestingly though, she happens to be close to one of the girls my seniors know, cause i've seen her move around with her a lot of times at the campus... :D thats interesting cause i was able to track her orkut id through this friend's id.... he he he he... but lets hope i dont screw it up even before something cooks up! alrighty, now i call it quits for the moment, cause i've gotta catch some sleep... its 5 am and i've been awake all night... have an exam in the afternoon too.. ciao!

my bangalore....

i walk, a mile and beyond, without knowing my destination. the closeness to nature at my institute is so wonderfully refreshing, with the breeze flowin in all directions.. and the leaves, yellow and dry, swaying around before they land gracefully onto land.... whoa! i jus love this place.... so beautiful, so serene... and so silent..... it reminds me of our old bangalore, which was so wonderful to live in, with hardly a vehicle seen for minutes.... the city was a paradise until all this software-related industry creeped in and stole away the charm of the city in the name of growth!!! growth huh... has come to bangalore and its original residents at a very costly price... this is definitely not, what most sensible bangaloreans ever wanted... i only wished that the people in power gave it a good thought before hurtling this wonderful city into what it has become now.... gone are the days of my childhood when we cycled carelessly on the roads of malleshwaram, played cricket over em on sundays and holidays.... hmmmm.... i miss my city, the way it was... and i literally hate the way it has been turned into now.... i only hope, she doesnt collapse under all this stress she's being put through.... love you my bangalore! love you lots!!

Where art thou??

Where art thou? so near and yet so far!
Where art thou? Think of it every hour.
Like a lightening in the sky, you've come and gone,
Where art thou? Disappeared like a fading song??

Days its been, since I've even had a glimpse,
Have missed your presence, ever since!
No clue I've found, for this sudden distance,
Where art thou? The thought passes by every instance.

Tis just a hope I live by, everyday,
That things will turn around, at least today!
Think about the last walk we had, one evening,
And I just look into the distance, sighing.....

Speak up Am**ha, please quit your silence,
Talk to me, erase this growing distance!!
This confusion........., its irritating me,

Where art thou? So far away from me??

into thoughts as usual..

well... i dwell a lot in thoughts than the real world sometimes, and it so happens that i jus dont realize whats happening around me... this was one occasion in Nandi, when i was jus pondering about something and my friends didnt miss the chance for the snap...